Blue Moon Womb Cleansing and Blessing Circle

Womb Goddess Sisters,  join me this Blue Moon, March 31st  in Circle for a Yoni Womb Cleansing and Blessing. We will energetically cleanse our Yoni and Womb by way of Limpia Spiritual Egg Cleansing and fill up the void with Love energy and Womb Blessings. If you missed the last Womb Blessing Circle this is for you !

In this  Blue Moon Circle your Womb will Receive:

 

*Goddess Divination 

*Yoni Womb Cleansing Ritual Live

*Womb Blessing Meditative Journey

*Womb Light Medicine 

*Womb Goddess Sisterhood

 

Investment        $27

 

This Womb Cleansing and Blessing Circle will take place online through Live Video Conferencing.

Join by March 31st at 6 pm EST.

  1. Make your Exchange Here.
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Feminine Fulfillment: Blessings of Contentment in Gratitude

In this Goddess Transmission I share the beauty of feminine contentment through deep appreciation, feminine meekness also known as gratitude.. playing with this energy through sensuality, yoni and womb devotion for fulfillment and sensuality and gratitude magik.

 

 

Goddess.. here’s your invitation.. join me in sisterhood.. as we gather in our Oshun Sweet Honey Gratitude Journey.. for deepening in feminine gratitude magik and miracles… this is medicine for our feminine soul.

Sensual Eats In Goddess Appreciation Ritual

Dear Womb Goddess,

I send you blessings of feminine gratitude and sensual eats.. it is far more greater to eat filled in appreciation and yoni vibration honey goodness.. these are the simple pleasures of life… cantaloupe never tasted more better..  this morning.. I blessed my  first morning drink.. infused water with tangerines and basil…I blessed  a bowl of juicy cantaloupe with feelings of appreciation for my life.. Thank you .. thank you life for choosing me.. thank you because I chose life.. thank you for the beautiful blessings of this day..  I sat in breathed life into my breakfast.. feeling into the sensuality of gratitude in expectations of my eats.. this is going to be tantalizing good..

I sat down and proceeded with my Sensual Womb Gratitude Ritual  taking deep breaths.. bringing awareness to my yoni.. raising sex energy… haaa feels so good.. I brought my awareness to my womb heart… and spoke my gratitude prayer… 

In this present moment… from the bottom of my womb heart.. I am grateful for …..

I felt my feet tingle… I turned my attention two my feet..  thank you.

I am grounded in love.. I stand on my own to feet.. thank you for supporting me.. for kissing the earth with every step…I bless my feet.

I felt sensations in my left breast… then my right.. reminding me of my nurturing nature…haaa 

I sink into my breast.. I bless them…

I feel my yoni poppin… I turn deeply within her.. I bless my sex.. I am shamelessly free …

then I feel.. an waves in my womb.. deep within my womb heart… warmth.. ,

I exhale..

haaaaa

Thank you.

Blessed is my womb.. blessed is my life.. blessed is  the gift of health that is keeping me alive…

I am filled with sweet gratitude.

I begin to eat my cantalope…in this feminine space..

its cold.. and juicy… I pause with each bite.. sucking…

the juice run down the back of my throat..

I feel the gratitude I infused.. 

I see ..Gratitude.

my yoni and womb responds in warmth…. love…

 intoxication and truth..

all of me is present in this moment of

I’m immersed in sensual  gratitude and delight.. 

Goddess.. here’s your invitation.. join me in sisterhood.. as we gather in our Oshun Sweet Honey Gratitude Journey.. for deepening in feminine gratitude magik and miracles… this is medicine for our feminine soul.

 

 

 

 

Yea… its official my Cirvixen Journey has begun

Dear Womb Goddess,

It’s official it takes 2 hours for me to vibrate as my juicy cervix with yoni egg, unfurling in my pelvic bowl ..womb..prayer.. blessing.. full body presence.. sensual breathing and engulfing the egg with each every orgasmic movement.. meditation with her and messaging from my lovely cervix and Goddess Oshun, deep oneness filled orgasms and tears of relief…haaaa… it’s a loving devotion… I’ve learned sooo much about her in just 2 days and goodess can she talk lol and she’s a ‘lil bossy lol. Once we became one..she directed every pose…I surrendered..to her so much she had to say…so much more i need to know..she even told me the crystals she prefer to set on my bikini line…utterly amazed, I’ll write more on it as guided..it was A lot..so much wisdom and understanding about my pregnancies..and life…gratitude. I experienced soo many cervical orgasms..they feel like ..I’m one with all there is.. so much came through my cervical practice. many things that of healing the grief of my baby loss  with my spirits ..that its to intimate to share … my cervix suffered so much..so to arrive her now..I’m taking the time for shadow.. incompetence was how she was defined…and she been proving them wrong ever since ..it’s so much and she is a tough donut lol she now craves tenderness and pleasure of her own.. it’s truly a wonder…

P.S. Join me and the Womb Goddess Sisterhood as we journey in Womb Love Devotional all month long in our online community.

Cervical Waves

Dear Womb Goddess,

 

I went on sacred blood hiatus from my yoni egg practice.. but with this beautiful new moon..womb lovin devotional and all the love vibrations of valentines and recent miracles.. .. I am feeling love all over me.. the truth is I am so supported.. and so are you.

Today, I did my yoni egg practice for 2 hours… I melted into my feminine being in ways.. I have never imagined this morning.. brought a deeper connection to my lover.. and so much nurture to my mounds.. as i felt my sensual energy rise.. my pelvic bowl filled up with big rainbow array of gerberana flowers.. my right breast began to ignite.. turning into a ball of fire.. in deep passion as I breathed deeply into my feminine space.. my jade egg rising.. my left breast taking on her own energy.. a spirit of gold.. honey flowing.. mmmmm.. the sweetness of Osun..  my soul love came to mind more…I began to chant his name..

meditating and sensual breathing… my breast rise and fall..on his name enabling my soul spirit  to rise and stand in her true form .. my spirit greatness .. a greatness that joins us.. I breathe in all of him.. his love.. his power.. his truth of me.. and allowed myself to receive more of his love.. his power.. his covering in my feminine spirit as I rise in my own .. rainbow..breathing and pulling my jade egg upwards.. further and further into my succulent canal with every sensual movement….until she massaged my cervix and remained… here’s where the deep pleasure and healing began…

I peak and my body awakene in gentle innocence.. my inner goddess Oshun rise to greet me in cervical orgasm.. I receive messaging of deep satisfying whole body arousal.. not only vibrating as a big juicy pussy..  underneath there was..  a marrying my cervix  and soul .. I feel her for the fist time in a way that I have never had.. my beautiful cervix.. she is the gatekeeper to the cosmology that is me.. the vast darkness of all of creation, my womb… I met her today in waves of orgasm and tears of  release…you see after the loss of our baby boy.. she blames herself. She blames herself for he natural structure, for having to receive medical support to carry not just one baby but too.. for giving into soon and having the first be a preemie.. she blames herself for the loss of our baby.  I ask her to search for evidence of this truth…and she couldn’t.. we couldn’t.  The truth is.. it is not her fault. it is not my fault. there are way to many influences that allowed this to occur for reasons beyond this post.. and so after being immersed in pleasure.. I wept. she wept.. and we began to see truth..  Iya Oshun came for me to see more of me.. for me to invoke.. my strength and what I know to be true about this very real occurence.. I gave birth after carrying for nearly 5 months to a whole beautiful 1 lb baby boy.. who loves me and I love him.. I felt him wrapped on my back as I lied there after sequences of cobra pose.. he got my back.. he is pure love and he always will be.. he was fully received by my Egun.

I am blessed and strengthened.. more than yesterday.. I pulled myself and rested on my hip bones.. yoni to earth…and felt my jade egg in my cervix so much so.. I pressed my fingers at my bikini line.. the place where I’ve been cut two times to bring my babies in the world.. to my surpise she was really up in my cervix as I meditated with my fingers there.. I began to feel my innonence.. i journey to myself.. sitting under the Christmas tree.. in  a car seat with my mom.. I am her present.. her birthday and holy day.. I am a gift to the world.. I became more innocence.. less blame.. less guilt.. less shame.. it was not my fault.. it really wasn’t.. I sat there in this pose for a spell.. stretched my hands to the heavens.. opened my heart. .with arms out wide to receive the worlds pureness.. and my own.. hugging myself.. deeply in relief…body hmming in love..cervix resting in contentment..one single butterfly flutter arounds me… oh this is how peace feels.. loves peace.. I am blessed in cervical waves.

 

Blessed is this day.. filled with waves of cervical pleasure.. release of grief and promises of contentment

 

Ase’.

Feel the Feels Feminine Release: Insecurity

Womb Goddess,

In my Womb Goddess Circle on face book  we’re journey freely in Womb Love this for the month of love. I have dedicate the first week to Feel the Feel Feminine Release, clearing out  ill feelings ready to go.. so that they do not crystallize in our womb as Dis-ease.. this month is all about releasing barriers to love through our womb.. a Womb Love Devotional journey and its a free invitation..

Today, I am clearing insecurity..  

 

Haaa…as I seep into this I innerstand that it’s not about faith, faith in my spiritual supports…its about placing trust within myself, entrusting my being and body with..Me..under the guidance of my own Head Spirit, Ori. .this is a devotion all its own. I place my faith in fear..many days and force myself into separation of my own love, not the love of The Mother or Orishas or even my own Ori, Egbe or Egun..they all love me, even Mother Earth is rooting for my success in this life for the greatness of humanity seeping in love. I’ve been feeling deep insecurity…not in forces “outside” of me, but by the force that is me.. I provide my own security first..I give myself the deep loving support first..and like all things it replicates and multiples…the laws are always at play. As I journeyed back home  to womb love today, my final words…as I placed my hand on my heart, connecting with the love of my womb..I spoke ever so clearly. . I can be trusted. It was never about the forces outside of me, of course Mother Universe adore me, I’m alive..I’m still here and the gift of life..is Still keeping me alive..its sheer love that holds me here.. and it will be love that carries me back to the ethers..but for now, I am here and the only separation I need to attend to is the love of my own, the love already given to me for me..as I turned my heart towards me..the truth arise..in an affirming.. all I need in this moment..just for today, “I can be trusted”..just as I trust my womb to cycle as loves nature intended…the blood of life to cease in the time allotted for flow, so I trust..my own guidance..which amazingly aligns with the guidance of my team who loves me dearly. ..I’m a Priestess.. I accept and allow for this… my whole life resonates in the trust of the unknown for my good, the call is large, I’ve made my choice…and now I live in it. My security begins with me. Today, I am clearing In-security..I am an empty vessel..may I be filled with perfect love, light and breathe. Ase’ #WombNurture

Loving The Regrettable Mound

Dear Womb Goddess,

I’ve been engaging with connecting and healing trauma in my right breast.. lovin her up. My ongoing intention is to be loving nurture.. to nurture myself and others.. nurturing myself into all manners of prosperous conditions of my life for the good of all. I didn’t realize how much my holy mounds influenced this.. I’m sitting here in this space of loving feminine nurture right now.. but I want to go back and share…as I accepted this invitation her in the month of love.. 

I began with forgiveness.. so much forgiveness was needed illuminate the disconnect I had with my right breast, you see when I was a young girl,  I burnt my right breast.. I had some resentment about this with my mother.. she’s in the ancestral realm now.. no love loss.. I adore my mother. When I was about 9,  my mounds began to sprout.. I was a chubby girl so they were really present at this time.. I recall wearing a gown that was a bit old and needed to be tossed, there was a hole in in where my right breast set and nearly my entire areola was exposed. My mother and I were popping popcorn on the stove and I heard her say a few times.. watch yourself.. your gonna get burned.. watch yourself.. and some how I burned my tender breast all around the areola. My mom got some butter and rubbed on it.. the burn stunted my growth.. I have suffered self -embarrassment most of my life when it came to both breast because my right breast was a size smaller than the left..

I remember a day as a young adult getting undressed in front of my mom, for some reason and she asked me about it.. years had passed and  it felt as if she never realized the outcome of the burning that took place.. although I’ve had many lovers, I mostly kept myself covered during love making.. I revealed myself with my high school sweetheart.. this was a very.. very Bitter more than sweet relationship and he pointed out this flaw on several occasions.. I spend most of my young adult years with him and this feed insecurity within me in many ways.. it wasn’t until I gave birth to my second child, my daughter that I began to embrace my breast. I breast feed her and although this breast didn’t produce a lot of milk for her.. it did  produce and it was amazing, she loved my right breast just as much as the left.. I recall nursing her and my mother-n-law spoke in judgement.. “does that breast produce milk”… I said yes and kept nursing her.. I sat in silent pain with this for a spell and disregarded it. My right breast has been a place of feeding my baby girl and a space of sensual nurture to my husband but she was never really my own. Often times both of my breast are a sexual utility for me..

I realized with loving the unlovable breast , that I have never really connected with either of my breast but I honored the left more because it was my “normal full size breast”. I wore pads many days so that they can appear even.. strapless and other outfits that emphasize breast where a place for embarrassment for me..  I didn’t deny myself but I’ve been conscious of this through out the years.. my husband has never.. ever spoken of the unevenness of my breast.. he just loved them up.. for his pleasure and mine.. never a dialogue about it, perhaps I will bring this to attention.. in time. Now, I accepted an invitation as part of living my feminine wholeness through self-nurture and after all this is love month !  I see here that I could not truly nurture myself and especially not in any type of prosperity without connecting with my feminine space of nurture. As women our breast drip in liquid gold.. nectar…they are pillows of comfort to all.. we all nurse on the breast of Mother Goddess daily for life.  With loving awareness..  l accepted my disconnection, years worth of it . My breast hang there.. they’ve nurtured men and baby.. but I’ve never allowed myself to love them and be nurtured by them, especially the “deformity”.

I began with connecting… just turning my attention to my breast gently..  it took what felt like an eternity to come to me.. even for me as a channeler…I asked her what do I need to know.. I began to travel back in time to the day that I injured myself.. I felt all the pain and resentment towards my mom and to myself.. all the embarrassment and shadow.. I felt the invitation to forgive.. forgive my mom.. forgive myself..I asked what’s the wisdom in this… I found myself deep in forgiveness ritual and love.. blessing all parts of the past pain.. blessing my breast as she was in that very moment..pouring love and light rays of healing…I am the forgiver.. I am the forgiven.. I touched my breast.. something I don’t do with attention.. in the shower I wash.. without real regard so I began to touch my breast.. I gave myself a breast check.. and I realized, I have so many swollen lymph nodes along my side, underneath my arm pits and some in the love handle beneath her.. I touched.. with wonder.. loved.. and blessed.. 

A day passed and I partake in my daily body blessing ritual.. nothing to really recall…

This morning, I awakened and brought loving attention to my body.. greeted that day.. said my prayers.. welcomed the miracle of the day.. and it came… I felt my right breast.. she wanted my attention.. I saw with my spiritual eye.. she was filled with blue sky and white fluffy clouds.. she was free… so I continued to connect with all my lovely lady parts.. blessing bringing loving awareness and I felt both breast.. they had beautiful flowers placed upon them.. my yoni mound.. my womb.. all adorned with flowers in spirit.. I spoke gently to myself.. blessed is my life.. blessed, my feminine is whole. I never felt so beautiful and complete.  I gave in…

Mystery.. occurred and I can’t recall but I arrived in a space of inquiry… and I found that my right breast.. the smaller one.. took on the energy of a pear and the right a cantaloupe.. yes if my breast were fruit, what would they be.. perhaps you can inquire to your own beautiful mounds..with so much yoni waves she became a pear.. filled with sensuality.. in  some Chinese culture the pear represents the virgin and child.. sweet and innocence other cultures a sign of affection.. so the google gods tell me, as I did a google search of discernment.. naturally a pear is feminine.. I felt it deep within my yoni… its the fruit of the feminine form ..and Goddess.

The pear is extravagantly and deliciously feminine with its exquisitely golden tinged skin, which yet is of firm texture, in the melting sweetness of its flesh, in its vaguely penetrating fragrance, in its subtle and ravishing and various curves, even if you will in the tantalising uncertainty as to the state of its heart, yes, the pear is surely a fruit perfectly endowed with the qualities which fit it to be regarded as a completely feminine symbol …allaboutheaven.org

 

Also, connected with my left breast.. the larger one… and it presented as a cantaloupe.. juicy refreshing.. nurturing.. reminding me how good and gratifying life really is. So, with one breast nurturing my sexiness and yoni soul.. the other refreshing me in a continuous state of gratitude with recognition of the blissings of my life.. I am feeling so juicy.. feminine and loved up… I exhale.. and all my life is nurturing me prosperous.

So.. I wonder if there is more shadow to unearth.. perhaps there is or perhaps this simply is a miracle.. and all is truly forgiven.. I’ll leave  that to mystery  .. but for now.. my beloved breast  is feeling free and loved.. and I will continue to bless her with this freedom and wholeness..

.. every day I welcome the miracle of the day.. it came swiftly in the form of breast fill clouds.. my right breast, the breast that carried shame and un-forgiveness.. now feeling blessed, loved.. honored.. free and as beautiful as earth mothers floral.. arranged in my own loving bliss… Blessed is my breast.. both of them.  

So, my sisters.. I invite you in.. bless your mounds.. and regrettable feminine parts… bless them up in loving holiness.. and tell me the mystery of it.

with love.

New Month Blessings: February

Blessed New Month Womb Godddess,

How are you feeling?  I’m experiencing so much bliss and renewal energy here in this Super Blue  Moon Lunar Eclipse essence and inviting so much juicy love for the month of February. Yes it is the month of  love and I bless you with so much Love Presence.  Now,  according to western astrology we are in the throws of a roaring Lion and I’m feeling all types of Leo energy myself.  I am reminding myself to allow this energy to seep within my being and body, as much as I would love to Act-Out . I’m allowing myself to Act-In my being and body, through womb blessings of movement, meditation and nourishment.  S.P.A.C.E.  The Moon in Leo means that we allow ourselves to go inward with Might, this is an inside job sisterloves, so.. although you may feel the need to roar out.. allow the energy to permeate within your own walls and then take inspired action this calendar month. I am a lover of all things Mama Moon and although we are preparing ourselves to wann now in this moon cycle.. we have the opportunity in the calendar year to observe and connect to freshness.  I also invite you to Pause and Gaze back on all that you have accomplished , do some womb-body-heart-soul inquiry to see all that you have achieved big or small , allow it to wash over you  from this past month and since the new moon and you know how we Womb Goddessess do, keep what works and toss the rest !  Let it go.. you are so Be-loved, my sisters.  

Now, the Blessing invitation.. close your eyes.. take some deep breaths, place your hands over you womb and feel into this Blessed New Month , its just for you.  Bless yourself with these loving words over the next five days of this month, our sacred Goddess Oshun number and be at rest in it.  Ase’.

Today I invite you into a new month blessings…
May fresh winds come to bless you with the wonder
of new beginnings.
May you turn a new page in divine confidence.
May your new beginnings come with ease.
filled with womb blessings and joy.
I bless your days with brightness of the sun.
I bless your nights with coolness of the moon.
I bless your rest with sweet dreams and renew.
I bless your body with health and vigor.
I bless your heart with loves presence and delight.
I bless your expansion with devotion and affection.
Blessed February 2018.
P.S.  Sisterloves, go back and make this personal, replace the “your” with My.  I bless my days with the brightness of the sun… I bless my nights with…. tell me, how your womb feels with these blessings.
I love you ! 
and 
I really do !!! 
P.P.S.  Do you desire to connect more deeply with your womb for nourishment, nurture  and renewal.. I’m available for intimate Womb Divination and Womb Wellness  sessions, here we will be sit in intimacy for 90 mins connecting with the messages, recipes, spells and rituals specifically for your wombs desires, wellness and life. We will call the best moon phases to work in as well  your Ancestral Mothers, Goddess Patrons for you at this time.. you can learn more about this in my Womb Goddess: Mind, Body, Soul Divination and Consultations. I hope to connect more with each of you in a womb session, also stay close for our Womb Restoration, Clearing and Blessing Full Moon Circle coming up in one month, March full Moon is all about  Womb Health, Healthy Womb, Health Life !

 

 

On Becoming a Yoni

Womb Goddess Sisters, I’ve found myself deeply immersed and vibrating  as an orgasmic juicy Yoni in my being and body, the past 9 days, since the new moon has been… inspiring, filled with  unearthing , wisdom and feminine activation I’ve been practicing yoni egg yoga every morning and I have to say. I feel utterly orgasmic, my entire being and body miraculously vibrating as a Yoni. I am moving my body in ways that I know I couldn’t  have if I didn’t bring the energy through my yoni in deep pleasure and orgasmic release… the change in how I bring sacred movement to my body, came after a serious break down.. this is truly the only way for me. I’m dedicated because it feel so cosmically good. Some wonderful things have been occurring in my body love journey, first..I give myself loving kuddos for being devoted to my early rising yoni practice and blessing up my er’thang. I give myself loving kuddos fro being devoted to in my nourishing food regi. I give myself  loving kudos in amazement  at how my 3rd eye has awakened, I can literally see my 3rd and commune, this has happened in the past with a plant based diet.. but my goodness.. no lie, its a bit freaky lol..my inner messaging is coming through with so much clarity.. its a bit creepy to awakened seeing your own eye, for me.. I receive messaging upon rising from my spirits. I noticed that I am rising with more messaging coming from myself, instead of my Spirits, I suppose I’m finally doing what they told me lol . So, its me reaffirming in prayer, mantras to myself..I love it tho.

There were times over this 9 days, that I had total break downs where all I could do is prayer, deep breath and rest.. but what came out of that was a deeper innerstanding that the only possible way for me to nurture myself in my desired wellness intentions is through my natural feminine nature, my yoni orgasmic self and everything has opened up for me.. I began to released barriers to this including, belief patterning, many that were not my own ! Several came through trauma that I felt I healed, “I” did, but several versions of  “I”  were need loving assurance… my ‘lil girl  and versions of her might I add.. didn’t feel safe being seen in full feminine goodness and Becoming a Vibrating Yoni means we can no longer hide, I’m so blessed to say , We are good and feeling so integrated in this, there is huge correlation with this, not only in my body and hiding with weight, but also in allowance of receiving my blessings and desired life vision and then there was the maternal ancestral patterning as it relates to my mom’s safety of being seen in her true feminine, her ‘lil girl stood up for healing, my mom was also over weight.. as many of the women in my family and her mother.. I received a miracle in this… I also released barriers in owning my own sex in divine sovereignty and unfurling deeper into orgasmic goodness.. receiving what is actually good for me.. rest, orgasm, sensual movement, nutrition and sleep.. CARE. and OMGodis      SLEEP. Surrendering to sleep has been a call to love for me for some time and I finally was able to unearth the truth in this… this is nothing shy of a MIRACLE. Sleep the cousin of death.. there is so much trust and security when it comes to sleep for me as a Human being..I’m able to connect with sleep in such a loving and holding way haaaa… It Is A Miracle.

I’ve been feeling myself immersing in my body in deep loving aaawness.. here I have this heavenly body that allows me to feel.. really really FEEL good, orgasmic and sensational even through what I consume and I mean CONSUME on all levels. My yoni is created to receive, so I’m leading with more awareness on what I’m receiving and allowing to fill up my yoni and womb,which is my life none the less. How I’m being and doing right now feels so so good. haaaa.. I feel like I can do absolutely ANYTHING through my natural nurturing feminine self blossoming in yoni love, inpowerment and sacred self sex… me as my natural woman self is unfurling and I am feeling so loved and cared for. One defining lesson is this… no matter how much I can imagine for myself,speak, meditate, desire, prayer for, do spells and all manner of ritualistic tools, nothing and I mean absolutely nothing will move in my life without the most penetrable orgasmic connection to my own love.. my yoni opens me up to it all. 

Maferefun Ye Ye Oshun.

I send you , Blessings of love and Becoming your own juicy Yoni. Ase’

Turning over a New Leaf, Holding Space for Me, Fall 2016

I wanted to begin this blog post as a Dear Me letter, when I realized that this sounds way to trending for where my heart is at the moment. This right here is a Heart Moment. Today is September 22, 2016 the first full day of Autumn. I awakened this morning in the vibe of “I’m turning over a New Leaf” but really, I’m uncertain of what that looks like, and more importantly what that will feel like for me. See, as of now, I have recently resigned from my day position as a Child Protective Services Social Worker, you know the “baby snatchers”. Yes, this position was taught me what it really means to see Trauma. I’m certain I’m dealing with post-secondary, no doubt. So, I’m here, and available to offer full time spiritual services for which I LOVE. It makes my heart sing. I realize that as much as I am a Spiritualist, and I use this term loosely because my abilities can be categorized, that’s not important right now. I’m essentially a space holder for folks to do their own healing, I take my abilities along for the ride. And so this leads me to this space, this morning, feeling like, I have turned over a New Leaf. No, this is not about my service to the world but my service to myself. So, I thought to myself what is the most cathartic and creative space for me to work this out, my blog. This is suppose to be a space of sharing, I’ve used this space to share mostly my teachings, videos and a like. BUT I have decided to turn over a New Leaf and use this space for processing my emotions , feeling my life and dare I say HOLD SPACE FOR MYSELF. Okay, so I’m trying, to figure this out. What exactly does it mean to HOLD SPACE FOR MYSELF ?!

So, as I’m here burning my neroli and cedar incense sitting in the nude with my laptop, fresh out the shower with a cup of my favorite Womb Tonic, Red raspberry leaf tea with a dollop of orange blossom honey. I realize, perhaps this is what holding space for myself feels like. Perhaps, holding space for myself is moments like this, when my family is still at rest and I can freely sit here in the nude on my laptop with tea.  Of course there is more to this, i’m sure, I’m a Sagittarius and my thoughts, feelings and emotions run deep as the ocean floor.  So, I’ll take time to ponder this more.  My question,  What does it really mean to hold space for Me?  This will be a living document indeed. I’ll do this list style. anewleaf

Holding space for myself feels like…

  1. The stillness in  between movement, its the little pocket of spaces that are not filled with to do lists of mental clutter. Its the space where I can just Be. Like right now sipping this tea, as I hear my family rise and get busy. The birds are singing and there is a ray of light coming in the window. I’m good.
  2. Its the ability to understand and Act on the most healing things I can do for myself is  in grace, humility and justice, knowing that I will not get it right 100 % of the time, but by Goddess I have to do something ! Hence, I’m here writing in the nude. Ha! I’m talking about waving the flame of my Creativity this season. Writing is everything, and truly has been one of the most healing tools that I have had. You see, I am an extrovert, I love the mirror effect, to bounce thoughts of of people, to master mind, even my deepest thoughts. I pretty much have a hard time doing this with myself. So writing helps me to be with ME and to feel safe doing it. I dunno, it something about witnessing yourself through sacred text, you know.  An audience of One.
  3. Forgiveness, for the past week or so I’ve been feeling a deep sense of Humility, this is a Work in progress, well not so much Work but mindfulness that Everything has Value and that when I am in a space of humility I can really feel my life, I’m at ease. I can see more clearly and I’m at peace with myself and my surroundings. Humility is a teacher and its teaching me the value of forgiveness. Not just for myself, although this one of the most Important spaces to hold for myself, even daily. This is an Intention here, yes Hoʻoponopono Style. Hoʻoponopono (hoo-pono-pono) is an ancient Hawaiian practice of reconciliation and forgiveness. (The Google Gods). I realized this morning that I can heal myself with this ritual or practice, but also my family members and ancestors. That by using this practice I can relieve myself of A lot of Shit. I mean hurts and pains, while Accepting that I came here to learn these lessons to, not all of this is my Ancestors shit !  Yea, there is a great sense of Maturity with this, because I totally get it, there are things that has happened to me, and choices that I have made as a result of my DNA, the scientist call this : Epigenetics. Basically its the shit you and your ancient do or don’t do that influence your DNA, your code. It’s the script. I’m scripted for brilliance and some dark shit to. And its the dark shit that I’m ready to Leggo ! So this reminds me that Autumn is the season of inner healing, silence and reaping of course, I’ve taken inventory of my harvest and I’ve done some pretty awesome things this year so far, I’ve hit many of my New Year Intentions for the year and I’ve survived the death of my Mother and Grandma-n-Law. Its an ongoing healing, but hey with Ancestral Consciousness and being a Medium, it makes life easier for me and my family. They right here in this house withe me. I hope to apply this technique this season for myself and my ancestors. After all, Forgiveness is the next logical step after Acceptance.
  4. Slowing my Ass Down !  Yes, okay my feet hurt, I mean seriously physically hurt. I’ve been running for quite some time, pushing, healing, making moves, expanding, now its time to Chill and really reap my harvest. I am here freely, sipping on tea, writing on my lap top. My husband is showering and my baby girl is at the table with a bowl of cereal. My Life is good, I can slow the pace down and feel it. I am safe to do so. I have All that I need. I am here. Later, I’ll do what I love. Ancestral and Womb Divination. but, no talks about service. This is about Holding Space for Me. Next.
  5. Grace, Grace and more Grace. ‘Nuff said here. I think about the Divine Feminine Way of things and we move through ebb and flow, cycles of nature, intuition  you know the stuff of the red tent and the Moon. We are just fuckin Magikal. but its really the Grace that makes us difference from all other creation, well at least Men lol. So I implore more Grace in my Life. I will explore what this means and feels like for me, I can say one thing, its certainly not pushing ! I move with ease and grace in all that I do. I live the feminine way. I have all that I need, why push, I’ll receive it, and move at the pace I am divined to move. No More Pushing I Proclaim ! lol  Yes, this is a healing sweet spot for Me.
  6. Breath.  Wow, so I come to the conclusion that I have been so busy with my aspirations to save the World ! Okay I know I am not the only one in Super Woman Recovery ! But yes, I have been all about that life, that I have not been breathing, okay it will help to move my body more and chill out, but for God sake !  I have shit to do and Create ! Who has time to Breathe.  I think about an old Weight Watchers Coach I had many moons ago, before I started my Intuitive Eating Movement and actually trusting myself to eat how I chose. Period. That’s another point tho. She use to say ” Well, how is that workin for ya ?”  When someone would share on grievance of things they should or shouldn’t be doing for their highest good. ” How’s that workin for ya ?!” Really, I need and deserve to fuckin  Breathe.  Oh sacred Air is so Powerful. So Clearing. I want more of that in my Life. And for fresh Autumn breeze, the crispiness of it All, my Goddess ! I Shall BREATHE AGAIN ! lol but seriously, my Lungs need rejuvenation.  So I’m loosely considering working out again. No pressure but Air, yes it’s necessary for Life.
  7. Being One with my Body. Being One with the Earth. Mama Earth. So, for most of my Life I have been disconnected form my body, hey, you’ve seen me. I got some weight on my bones.  You know its safety issues. But I realize this morning, that hey I’ve done a lot of the deep shit. (taking inventory of my sacred healing)  I’m feel empowered and safe here. This place is beginning to feel like HOME. So as I did my grounding ritual, for which I plan to do more of. I got some Root Chakra healing to do. 😉 In all humility, I just wanna feel Her. I just wanna be Her. To take in All that Mother Earth has to offer, I feel her Energy a few days ago in Ritual, she cares for me and desires for me to feel at Home here. I’m safe here, now its a matter of reconciling this with All of me. But yes, it starts with Humility and reverence for all that she has offered me and Man. That is human kind, you know. So I begin this journey to really feel Her presence in deep gratitude and humility. I’m looking to discover ways to do this and this season, is Perfect, plus it my favorite season  ! I LOOOOOVE AUTUMN !

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Well, it appears that I’m done. I don’t have anything else to say about my list. I will say this, I feel that I have held space for myself in this space. I witness myself first and foremost and I had fun doing this, so I will continue to explore these themes in my life and what it feels like in Action by God and Goddess Grace. I have a deep sense of Humility in this.  Hey, its Autumn, and I have turned over a New Leaf. I Live. Yes, I Really Live. Ase’.

Open Heart Living: Moments at a time, in between time. Peace.