Cervical Waves

Dear Womb Goddess,

 

I went on sacred blood hiatus from my yoni egg practice.. but with this beautiful new moon..womb lovin devotional and all the love vibrations of valentines and recent miracles.. .. I am feeling love all over me.. the truth is I am so supported.. and so are you.

Today, I did my yoni egg practice for 2 hours… I melted into my feminine being in ways.. I have never imagined this morning.. brought a deeper connection to my lover.. and so much nurture to my mounds.. as i felt my sensual energy rise.. my pelvic bowl filled up with big rainbow array of gerberana flowers.. my right breast began to ignite.. turning into a ball of fire.. in deep passion as I breathed deeply into my feminine space.. my jade egg rising.. my left breast taking on her own energy.. a spirit of gold.. honey flowing.. mmmmm.. the sweetness of Osun..  my soul love came to mind more…I began to chant his name..

meditating and sensual breathing… my breast rise and fall..on his name enabling my soul spirit  to rise and stand in her true form .. my spirit greatness .. a greatness that joins us.. I breathe in all of him.. his love.. his power.. his truth of me.. and allowed myself to receive more of his love.. his power.. his covering in my feminine spirit as I rise in my own .. rainbow..breathing and pulling my jade egg upwards.. further and further into my succulent canal with every sensual movement….until she massaged my cervix and remained… here’s where the deep pleasure and healing began…

I peak and my body awakene in gentle innocence.. my inner goddess Oshun rise to greet me in cervical orgasm.. I receive messaging of deep satisfying whole body arousal.. not only vibrating as a big juicy pussy..  underneath there was..  a marrying my cervix  and soul .. I feel her for the fist time in a way that I have never had.. my beautiful cervix.. she is the gatekeeper to the cosmology that is me.. the vast darkness of all of creation, my womb… I met her today in waves of orgasm and tears of  release…you see after the loss of our baby boy.. she blames herself. She blames herself for he natural structure, for having to receive medical support to carry not just one baby but too.. for giving into soon and having the first be a preemie.. she blames herself for the loss of our baby.  I ask her to search for evidence of this truth…and she couldn’t.. we couldn’t.  The truth is.. it is not her fault. it is not my fault. there are way to many influences that allowed this to occur for reasons beyond this post.. and so after being immersed in pleasure.. I wept. she wept.. and we began to see truth..  Iya Oshun came for me to see more of me.. for me to invoke.. my strength and what I know to be true about this very real occurence.. I gave birth after carrying for nearly 5 months to a whole beautiful 1 lb baby boy.. who loves me and I love him.. I felt him wrapped on my back as I lied there after sequences of cobra pose.. he got my back.. he is pure love and he always will be.. he was fully received by my Egun.

I am blessed and strengthened.. more than yesterday.. I pulled myself and rested on my hip bones.. yoni to earth…and felt my jade egg in my cervix so much so.. I pressed my fingers at my bikini line.. the place where I’ve been cut two times to bring my babies in the world.. to my surpise she was really up in my cervix as I meditated with my fingers there.. I began to feel my innonence.. i journey to myself.. sitting under the Christmas tree.. in  a car seat with my mom.. I am her present.. her birthday and holy day.. I am a gift to the world.. I became more innocence.. less blame.. less guilt.. less shame.. it was not my fault.. it really wasn’t.. I sat there in this pose for a spell.. stretched my hands to the heavens.. opened my heart. .with arms out wide to receive the worlds pureness.. and my own.. hugging myself.. deeply in relief…body hmming in love..cervix resting in contentment..one single butterfly flutter arounds me… oh this is how peace feels.. loves peace.. I am blessed in cervical waves.

 

Blessed is this day.. filled with waves of cervical pleasure.. release of grief and promises of contentment

 

Ase’.

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Womb Restoration Blessing Circle

Womb Goddess you are invited,

I am over the moon honored to bring all our Womb Love to this Womb Renewal Blessing Moon Circle. Our intention held for this Circle is on Womb Health Restoration, Spiritual Womb Clearing and Womb Blessings  in the Virgo Full Moon, March 2nd, Goddess Oshun Day.

 

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In this Full Moon Circle your Womb will Receive:

 

*Goddess Divination 

*Womb Clearing 

*Womb Restoration Meditative Journey

*Womb Light Medicine 

*Womb Blessings

*Womb Goddess Sisterhood

 

 

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This Womb Blessing Circle will take place online through Live Video Conferencing.

Join by March 2nd 5 pm est.

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Feel the Feels Feminine Release: Impostor

Dear Womb Goddess,

 

Today, I am clearing inadequacy that presents itself as procrastination..
 
As, I journeyed with my womb today I come to a few things as I unearthed in love.. any form of procrastination that I experience, is simply a withholding of love.. through loving efforts that begot love.. love for myself or others.. underneath this is feelings of inadequacy.. that I really don’t know what the hell I’m doing.. that my feet can’t trust my Heads guidance.. I heard this.. very clearly.. ‘The Wisdom is in the Doing’ and certainly it is.. I found deep orgasmic yoni soul wisdom with daily practice.. I became my juicy vibrating pussy purring with every movement… love and pleasure washed over me.. and sensuality was seen in my eyes for all to see in a weeks time.. amazement..so the Wisdom is in the Doing. I see here that.. there is wisdom… the lies between my Head and my feet.. and feeling into it allows me to move graciously.. daily devotion of listening and leading with loves confidence in courage.. I’m never alone and the truth is I don’t have to figure it all out.. I am not an impostor of my own life.. I am living withing my life.. allowing it all to resonate.. truth.. I trust my life and its so incredibly beautiful.. all of it.. I bless myself with this truth daily and it warms my soul.. I made the choices to experience this.. where I am today.. I am Sovereign. I can be trusted. I can trust undoubtedly without judgement and as long as I have breath in my body I can begin again.. and again.. and again.. my life choices are my own solely… with the support. I lose faith in myself when I hear the guidance.. but don’t listen and listening means I leap with loves courage when I need or I rest in loves grace.. and move peace by peace… its all ebb and flow.. soft will power is the feminine way that I choose for efforts in my life.. love efforts.. when I procrastinate.. I am enthralled in fear of being an impostor..filled with inadequacy of who I am…of life. I am not trusting the wisdom of doing as my highest self.. my womb.. and all of my energetic body directs..the days unfold in this feel the feels devotion and it all goes back to this: Trust Myself. this is not a new message its an invitation to grok womb  truth.   haaaaa …. I am an empty vessel. May I be filled with perfect love, light, and breath. #WombNurture.
Maferefun Baba Obatala. 
P.S. Join me and the Womb Goddess Sisterhood as we journey in Womb Love Devotional all month long in our online community.

Feel the Feels Feminine Release: Insecurity

Womb Goddess,

In my Womb Goddess Circle on face book  we’re journey freely in Womb Love this for the month of love. I have dedicate the first week to Feel the Feel Feminine Release, clearing out  ill feelings ready to go.. so that they do not crystallize in our womb as Dis-ease.. this month is all about releasing barriers to love through our womb.. a Womb Love Devotional journey and its a free invitation..

Today, I am clearing insecurity..  

 

Haaa…as I seep into this I innerstand that it’s not about faith, faith in my spiritual supports…its about placing trust within myself, entrusting my being and body with..Me..under the guidance of my own Head Spirit, Ori. .this is a devotion all its own. I place my faith in fear..many days and force myself into separation of my own love, not the love of The Mother or Orishas or even my own Ori, Egbe or Egun..they all love me, even Mother Earth is rooting for my success in this life for the greatness of humanity seeping in love. I’ve been feeling deep insecurity…not in forces “outside” of me, but by the force that is me.. I provide my own security first..I give myself the deep loving support first..and like all things it replicates and multiples…the laws are always at play. As I journeyed back home  to womb love today, my final words…as I placed my hand on my heart, connecting with the love of my womb..I spoke ever so clearly. . I can be trusted. It was never about the forces outside of me, of course Mother Universe adore me, I’m alive..I’m still here and the gift of life..is Still keeping me alive..its sheer love that holds me here.. and it will be love that carries me back to the ethers..but for now, I am here and the only separation I need to attend to is the love of my own, the love already given to me for me..as I turned my heart towards me..the truth arise..in an affirming.. all I need in this moment..just for today, “I can be trusted”..just as I trust my womb to cycle as loves nature intended…the blood of life to cease in the time allotted for flow, so I trust..my own guidance..which amazingly aligns with the guidance of my team who loves me dearly. ..I’m a Priestess.. I accept and allow for this… my whole life resonates in the trust of the unknown for my good, the call is large, I’ve made my choice…and now I live in it. My security begins with me. Today, I am clearing In-security..I am an empty vessel..may I be filled with perfect love, light and breathe. Ase’ #WombNurture

Loving The Regrettable Mound

Dear Womb Goddess,

I’ve been engaging with connecting and healing trauma in my right breast.. lovin her up. My ongoing intention is to be loving nurture.. to nurture myself and others.. nurturing myself into all manners of prosperous conditions of my life for the good of all. I didn’t realize how much my holy mounds influenced this.. I’m sitting here in this space of loving feminine nurture right now.. but I want to go back and share…as I accepted this invitation her in the month of love.. 

I began with forgiveness.. so much forgiveness was needed illuminate the disconnect I had with my right breast, you see when I was a young girl,  I burnt my right breast.. I had some resentment about this with my mother.. she’s in the ancestral realm now.. no love loss.. I adore my mother. When I was about 9,  my mounds began to sprout.. I was a chubby girl so they were really present at this time.. I recall wearing a gown that was a bit old and needed to be tossed, there was a hole in in where my right breast set and nearly my entire areola was exposed. My mother and I were popping popcorn on the stove and I heard her say a few times.. watch yourself.. your gonna get burned.. watch yourself.. and some how I burned my tender breast all around the areola. My mom got some butter and rubbed on it.. the burn stunted my growth.. I have suffered self -embarrassment most of my life when it came to both breast because my right breast was a size smaller than the left..

I remember a day as a young adult getting undressed in front of my mom, for some reason and she asked me about it.. years had passed and  it felt as if she never realized the outcome of the burning that took place.. although I’ve had many lovers, I mostly kept myself covered during love making.. I revealed myself with my high school sweetheart.. this was a very.. very Bitter more than sweet relationship and he pointed out this flaw on several occasions.. I spend most of my young adult years with him and this feed insecurity within me in many ways.. it wasn’t until I gave birth to my second child, my daughter that I began to embrace my breast. I breast feed her and although this breast didn’t produce a lot of milk for her.. it did  produce and it was amazing, she loved my right breast just as much as the left.. I recall nursing her and my mother-n-law spoke in judgement.. “does that breast produce milk”… I said yes and kept nursing her.. I sat in silent pain with this for a spell and disregarded it. My right breast has been a place of feeding my baby girl and a space of sensual nurture to my husband but she was never really my own. Often times both of my breast are a sexual utility for me..

I realized with loving the unlovable breast , that I have never really connected with either of my breast but I honored the left more because it was my “normal full size breast”. I wore pads many days so that they can appear even.. strapless and other outfits that emphasize breast where a place for embarrassment for me..  I didn’t deny myself but I’ve been conscious of this through out the years.. my husband has never.. ever spoken of the unevenness of my breast.. he just loved them up.. for his pleasure and mine.. never a dialogue about it, perhaps I will bring this to attention.. in time. Now, I accepted an invitation as part of living my feminine wholeness through self-nurture and after all this is love month !  I see here that I could not truly nurture myself and especially not in any type of prosperity without connecting with my feminine space of nurture. As women our breast drip in liquid gold.. nectar…they are pillows of comfort to all.. we all nurse on the breast of Mother Goddess daily for life.  With loving awareness..  l accepted my disconnection, years worth of it . My breast hang there.. they’ve nurtured men and baby.. but I’ve never allowed myself to love them and be nurtured by them, especially the “deformity”.

I began with connecting… just turning my attention to my breast gently..  it took what felt like an eternity to come to me.. even for me as a channeler…I asked her what do I need to know.. I began to travel back in time to the day that I injured myself.. I felt all the pain and resentment towards my mom and to myself.. all the embarrassment and shadow.. I felt the invitation to forgive.. forgive my mom.. forgive myself..I asked what’s the wisdom in this… I found myself deep in forgiveness ritual and love.. blessing all parts of the past pain.. blessing my breast as she was in that very moment..pouring love and light rays of healing…I am the forgiver.. I am the forgiven.. I touched my breast.. something I don’t do with attention.. in the shower I wash.. without real regard so I began to touch my breast.. I gave myself a breast check.. and I realized, I have so many swollen lymph nodes along my side, underneath my arm pits and some in the love handle beneath her.. I touched.. with wonder.. loved.. and blessed.. 

A day passed and I partake in my daily body blessing ritual.. nothing to really recall…

This morning, I awakened and brought loving attention to my body.. greeted that day.. said my prayers.. welcomed the miracle of the day.. and it came… I felt my right breast.. she wanted my attention.. I saw with my spiritual eye.. she was filled with blue sky and white fluffy clouds.. she was free… so I continued to connect with all my lovely lady parts.. blessing bringing loving awareness and I felt both breast.. they had beautiful flowers placed upon them.. my yoni mound.. my womb.. all adorned with flowers in spirit.. I spoke gently to myself.. blessed is my life.. blessed, my feminine is whole. I never felt so beautiful and complete.  I gave in…

Mystery.. occurred and I can’t recall but I arrived in a space of inquiry… and I found that my right breast.. the smaller one.. took on the energy of a pear and the right a cantaloupe.. yes if my breast were fruit, what would they be.. perhaps you can inquire to your own beautiful mounds..with so much yoni waves she became a pear.. filled with sensuality.. in  some Chinese culture the pear represents the virgin and child.. sweet and innocence other cultures a sign of affection.. so the google gods tell me, as I did a google search of discernment.. naturally a pear is feminine.. I felt it deep within my yoni… its the fruit of the feminine form ..and Goddess.

The pear is extravagantly and deliciously feminine with its exquisitely golden tinged skin, which yet is of firm texture, in the melting sweetness of its flesh, in its vaguely penetrating fragrance, in its subtle and ravishing and various curves, even if you will in the tantalising uncertainty as to the state of its heart, yes, the pear is surely a fruit perfectly endowed with the qualities which fit it to be regarded as a completely feminine symbol …allaboutheaven.org

 

Also, connected with my left breast.. the larger one… and it presented as a cantaloupe.. juicy refreshing.. nurturing.. reminding me how good and gratifying life really is. So, with one breast nurturing my sexiness and yoni soul.. the other refreshing me in a continuous state of gratitude with recognition of the blissings of my life.. I am feeling so juicy.. feminine and loved up… I exhale.. and all my life is nurturing me prosperous.

So.. I wonder if there is more shadow to unearth.. perhaps there is or perhaps this simply is a miracle.. and all is truly forgiven.. I’ll leave  that to mystery  .. but for now.. my beloved breast  is feeling free and loved.. and I will continue to bless her with this freedom and wholeness..

.. every day I welcome the miracle of the day.. it came swiftly in the form of breast fill clouds.. my right breast, the breast that carried shame and un-forgiveness.. now feeling blessed, loved.. honored.. free and as beautiful as earth mothers floral.. arranged in my own loving bliss… Blessed is my breast.. both of them.  

So, my sisters.. I invite you in.. bless your mounds.. and regrettable feminine parts… bless them up in loving holiness.. and tell me the mystery of it.

with love.

Womb Love Devotional Month

Hey Sisterloves,

Womb Restoration + Love Month Devotion + Winning 

 

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Freely…for the month of Love we’ll delve deeper into our Womb Restoration and Love.. weekly throughout the month I’ll come to you with a beautiful Womb Devotion, recipes, prayers, videos from my deep womb healing, herbs and all things womb love to add your womb practice, recall or to initiate… we will then close out this Womb Love Devotional month in a Womb Health Restoration, Clearing and Blessing Circle in the Virgo Full Moon, March 2nd, Oshun Day.  AND You can win an opportunity to come into the Moon Circle at Pay-What-You-Can.

All you have to do to enter is Document your devotion by posting a journal post, inspirational or artistic posts, a photo image or even a video Sistars, Show me the Womb Love of how you Felt before, during and after your devotion each week with #WombNurture Fall Deeply Madly in Love with your Holy Grail and I will be doing the same ! That’s It Your Entered to Win. I will announce February 28.   Whose In?

 

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A Womb Blessed in Loss

Sister Womb Goddesses..  coming to share in love and grief of my infant …I gave birth naturally at 5 months gestation, he was beautiful and fully developed..living for only one hour… we named him Clarence N. Doe III.  .. yesterday…. yesterday was one of the worst days of my life… I was feeling very tender yesterday, grieving my baby..I called in and asked for love, light, prayer and space holding from my sisters…it was my actual Expected Due Date, and I grieved …expected to deliver my baby Clarence N. Doe, III. by cesarean yesterday while the world was blissful in Magikal Cosmology…it was unimaginably painful for me.

I spend the day nurturing myself the best I could.. as I’m healing my body now..from it all.. I nearly died beloveds.. I did some meditative walking, cried..lots and lots of crying.. nourished my womb.. blessed up er’thing.. I blessed my grief.. my desire to love … to watch him grow.. to enjoy him.. and all the significant pleasantry that a new baby bring.. I  blessed my cervix because she has been deemed incompetent and suffered from stitching to save his life.. I blessed my body as she heals from a near death experience.. I blessed my womb.. his home and mine.. I blessed my life with love.. so much love and appreciation.. i’m a brave feminine soul.. creatress of life.. all life.. even this preciious life that has passed.

I set lights and poured libations in honor of  my Egun ,as always they are my saviors..my mothers father in particular who.. I never knew nor did she really, she only met him once, he was a Jehovah Witness Pastor…he came to me at the beginning of my traditional healing after the birth and death of my baby… which lead to my initiation as Omo Oshun Priestess in Ifa.. to date.. as always my Egun come with no delay with assurance and you know ..what really supported me the most was sisterhood..

I got Real Life spoken into me.. so soft nurturing and lovely …I rested in it.. its a miracle … to allow yourself to be supported. I brought this into a beautiful meditative  walking state yesterday as I sunk my feet into fresh blankets of soft snow… felt like I was walking on pillows.. ‘I am supported’.. listening to homes with wind chimes and noticing.. just noticing all the messages of nature.. as I walked to pick up my preschooler… and into the evening.. my phone vibrated with text messages full of love, healing and just witnessing.. I cried and still cry tears of release.. on this screen.. big ones.. with so much gratitude.. sisterhood rang in my soul.. their words and love.. a healing balm.. in the truth, I couldn’t conjure myself… I expected to love him.. to be loved by him.. to watch our other kiddos love up on him… to see my husband lift him up  like Mustafa the Lion King  as he did our other children in pride and admiration as he softly kissed his forehead. One of my sisters gave me the permission I needed.. she said in full mother spirit…”its okay to love him.. love him all you want and let it wash over me”… I feel so inspired to do so..as I need.. as he calls.grief

My beloved husband held space for me.. like only a masculine could.. putting aside his own feelings for mine, taking care …I awakened feeling refreshed.. I offered my womb blessings of clearing .. clearing of grief, sadness and continued blessing of my expectancy and desire to love my baby boy … filling up with loves presence.

and so.. today, I’m sitting in the essence of blessings.. the entire 9 months are complete.. there will be more milestone days to come..but this too has passed. So, thankful.. I hope the cosmos are treating you well.. whatever it is.. just be with it… let it wash over you … it will surely pass..for you as well.. such as life.. I looked upon the hills and heard.. ‘these are the days of my life’.. and so they are …Womb Goddess Blessings be upon you all and to the Women who have experienced loss..I feel it in my own bones.. I know your pain.. I see you, you are me.. there is no shame …I love you. 

Ase’.

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